Why did i meet you? Why you and no one else after the first two months of the war when i was already sensitvive enough to all what were happening in Ukraine when i was already an open wound? Why did i know from the beginning of May that you were a Little Ukrainian Angel, why i gave you this title during the second week of our acquaintance when the flashlight came to my mind about it more clearly than sun shines? Why do i trust your instincts so much that i would be ready to take the first train to Київ upon your smallest hint? Why should i have had to see this photo which is burning on my retina and will stay in my mind for ever which i never be able or want to forget? Why do these puzzle pieces come together? What fate should i expect after such a shower of unbelievable miraculous impulses? Tetiana, what will happen to me?
Will we feel clearly what we will have to do? Will we feel when the time comes to me to make a sacrifice for your people? If you feel already and you see that i don't because i am not sensitive or not brave enough please tell me immediately! You see much deeper than me because you are a much more mature person. Please teach me lead me and control me when you see that i am unconsciously fleeing from an obligation. I cannot imagine our relation differently. Please be strong and determined at that moment! You have these characters it is impossible to ignore, it was already evident before this photo was taken but now it is so crystal clearly visible that no one can deny. I have no any more wishes than this that this story end up well and save my honesty and make an example from my life for the future. I don't want anything else. Listen to your inner voice constantly and if one day you hear that Gyuri should go but still you see that i am not going please tell me this tous de suite. Tous de suite! I can imagine that i have to wait and prepare for a while i can imagine that i am not yet fully ready but i don't want to wait for ages i want to be ready soon. Please Tetiana!
